I had a great time visiting with my brother Gary and his family for Christmas. Big John is still butt hurt and is mad at my family from last 4th of July. So he stayed home and I let him be. How do I feel about the situation? Well, I am hurt and somewhat angry. Sometimes I think we should be supportive of what our partners are doing and spend time with them even if it's not something you would do. Minor sacrifice in my opinion. John and I spent Thanksgiving home alone, no family, no friends, just him and me. I was raised with big family events, tons of kids, lots of food, and just a really fun time. I wasn't going to spend my Christmas home alone and now I refuse to spend any holiday home just the two of us again.
Gary and Sylvia had Sylvia's sister Barbara and her husband Ron there along with their son Ronnie and his wife Stacey. My two nieces Carrie Ann and Natalie with their husbands Joe and Bryan were also there. Add the kids and it was such a wonderful gathering. I've added a few picture to enjoy. I really miss the family part of my life. I never realized how much it is a part of me. Even when married to Ernie we would visit his family and my family and it was just automatic. John would just assume go by himself as to invite or think that I would go. It's so different. I think it is effecting how I feel about my relationship with him. I can't get past the yours is yours and mine is mine mentality of our relationship. We are two individual living in the same place with not that much in common or any desire to grow toward each other. He tolerates me and I've just become a bitch toward him. Lousy way to live, but I think we both feel to old to change, to invested and no where else to live.
I keep getting side tracked. My family was a wonderful place for me to be. I talked with my brother and sister-in-law, enjoyed Ron & Barbara as we are all old friends from being in the same family for 40 years. I would like to see my son Bryan and daughter in law Hannah have children but doesn't look like that if going to happen, so the closest thing I have are my niece's children. Carrie's daughter Isabella and Natalie's two Joshua and Madison. Great to spend so much time with just the kids. Isabella is the oldest at 6 1/2 with Josh almost 3 and Madison at 7 months. Lots of energy and a time to watch them change and grow. Ron and Barb's son Ronnie had his two there also, Page 7 1/2 and Parker about 3-4. I really enjoyed watching all the kids and their parents. I was so surprised how relaxed their parent were. They just let the kids have a good time, they were watched, not controlled. Loved it! I have a great family, thank you Gary and Sylvia for your invitation.
I spent the time with Gary and Sylvia and Barbara and Ron at Sylvia's house. Christmas was at Carrie's home, nice end to a great day. Leave the kids with their parents and spend so social time with the older adults. Left the next morning around 8am to head back to Fresno. John was home having a quiet time. I think he would have enjoyed his time, but you can't make up lost time. Next time we all get together is SuperBowl Sunday, Feb. 6, 2011. John says he's staying home for that too. I'm not, I'm going to see my family and enjoy this little piece of my life. Enough for now. Now I need to figure out how to post a few picture of Christmas.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Vacation Holiday
I've taken a couple of extra days off this year during the holidays. I just have so much time on the books that I need to take some and I just felt like it. The weather is rainy and it's kind of nice just being home alone. No John and all the spelling questions. Me and my cats. So I'm enjoying it. I decided to get down and begin my life story for my son. If he reads it that's great, if he doesn't and never finds it, well it will have made me feel good writing my story before I can't remember it. So where do I begin?
I was born Sindi Angela Uribe in Oakland California in the Oakland Hospital on October 7, 1951. I already have 4 older brothers and sisters from my fathers first marriage. They are Bernard Uribe Jr, Barbara, Alexander and Anita. At this writing my brother Alex had committed suicide in Sept. 2007 and has been gone, but more on other the family members later. I also have an older brother Gary and a younger sister Princess. I would say my childhood was normal but I don't think my family had much and we were poor, but I was happy and didn't know the difference. I got hand me downs, I had a loving family, my dad was very generous to us second generation kids and I just didn't know any different. My mother has always worked as a hair dresser and I remember that I wanted her to stay home like other kids mom, but she worked. My dad was self employed doing cement work with his father and later my brothers, but the boys didn't like the work and quit.
During the early years age 0-5 I would say I have few recollections accept that I spent a lot of time with my mother parents, my Nana and Nano. I remember more about that time with them than with my own house. I loved them, played in the back yard where they had their own vegetables, played in the front on this thing I thought was a slide, but my grandmother would always want me to stop. My mom would tell me she was very protective of us kids. They lived in a part of Oakland that many Italians settled when coming from Italy. Both my grandparent came to America, I believe they met here and married. They came from different villages and probably because of work and the possibility of a new life they came to America. Anyway my Aunt Inez was born in 1916 and my mother in 1919. I have done a lot of work on Ancestry.com to trace my family. Go there and find more information about this side of my family if interested.
I remember going with my Nana and Nano to shop. Stopping to talk with other Italians. I unfortunately didn't understand what they were saying, but we managed to communicate. I was very close with them and their love for me was an important part of my life and who I am. My Nana was a good cook, the house had a basement where she made her own pasta, ravioli and canning. I remember spending time with her there in the basement. My Nano would work in the back yard, but my mom told me he worked in the fish market in downtown Oakland. I don't remember seeing him there, but maybe he was retired by then. Playing, eating, counting my money in my piggy bank and always spending Xmas Eve with them are my greatest memories. They died in 1961 & 62 and I was only 10 and that was a big loss for me. I went to their funerals not totally understanding death. But I guess that's when I learned.
When I began school I attended E. Morris Cox elementary school in Oakland, California. I lived not far from the San Leandro border near E. 14th St, now call International Blvd. Cox was located on 98th Ave and San Leandro Blvd. Great school and I can remember seeing my brother Gary 4 years ahead at school. We had a diverse student body and I've always appreciated the differences between people and nationalities. I had a couple of black girlfriends that lived around to corner. They ate corn bread and we didn't. Good experience. I also learn about differences through my father. I remember having a Chinese boyfriend in 3rd grade and my father was very upset. He perhaps did not explain it well but the point he was making was that he is Asian and should stay with his own kind. He continued to explain black with black, white with with, Asian with Asian. That was one of those milestone memories you have during the course of your life that shape you. How do I feel about it now? I married a Filipino but never had my parents meet his parents so I was afraid of what my father felt.
I felt growing up to be pretty independent. Always doing my own thing, but somewhere in my life the fear I had of my father was enough to keep me in line. I'm sorry for that today, I wish he could have been more loving and able to discuss his feeling with me. I would have liked to have known more about my dad, what he had done, where he had been, what he did in the Navy. I must have been shut down early about asking questions cause even today I don't ask many questions. For one I don't want to appear stupid and two I'm afraid of being made fun of. Low self esteem from someone that wasn't afraid to step out and be the leader. Today, I'm just in the background and prefer to be that way. Til next time when we begin to look at sexual assult and how if effected me later in life.
I was born Sindi Angela Uribe in Oakland California in the Oakland Hospital on October 7, 1951. I already have 4 older brothers and sisters from my fathers first marriage. They are Bernard Uribe Jr, Barbara, Alexander and Anita. At this writing my brother Alex had committed suicide in Sept. 2007 and has been gone, but more on other the family members later. I also have an older brother Gary and a younger sister Princess. I would say my childhood was normal but I don't think my family had much and we were poor, but I was happy and didn't know the difference. I got hand me downs, I had a loving family, my dad was very generous to us second generation kids and I just didn't know any different. My mother has always worked as a hair dresser and I remember that I wanted her to stay home like other kids mom, but she worked. My dad was self employed doing cement work with his father and later my brothers, but the boys didn't like the work and quit.
During the early years age 0-5 I would say I have few recollections accept that I spent a lot of time with my mother parents, my Nana and Nano. I remember more about that time with them than with my own house. I loved them, played in the back yard where they had their own vegetables, played in the front on this thing I thought was a slide, but my grandmother would always want me to stop. My mom would tell me she was very protective of us kids. They lived in a part of Oakland that many Italians settled when coming from Italy. Both my grandparent came to America, I believe they met here and married. They came from different villages and probably because of work and the possibility of a new life they came to America. Anyway my Aunt Inez was born in 1916 and my mother in 1919. I have done a lot of work on Ancestry.com to trace my family. Go there and find more information about this side of my family if interested.
I remember going with my Nana and Nano to shop. Stopping to talk with other Italians. I unfortunately didn't understand what they were saying, but we managed to communicate. I was very close with them and their love for me was an important part of my life and who I am. My Nana was a good cook, the house had a basement where she made her own pasta, ravioli and canning. I remember spending time with her there in the basement. My Nano would work in the back yard, but my mom told me he worked in the fish market in downtown Oakland. I don't remember seeing him there, but maybe he was retired by then. Playing, eating, counting my money in my piggy bank and always spending Xmas Eve with them are my greatest memories. They died in 1961 & 62 and I was only 10 and that was a big loss for me. I went to their funerals not totally understanding death. But I guess that's when I learned.
When I began school I attended E. Morris Cox elementary school in Oakland, California. I lived not far from the San Leandro border near E. 14th St, now call International Blvd. Cox was located on 98th Ave and San Leandro Blvd. Great school and I can remember seeing my brother Gary 4 years ahead at school. We had a diverse student body and I've always appreciated the differences between people and nationalities. I had a couple of black girlfriends that lived around to corner. They ate corn bread and we didn't. Good experience. I also learn about differences through my father. I remember having a Chinese boyfriend in 3rd grade and my father was very upset. He perhaps did not explain it well but the point he was making was that he is Asian and should stay with his own kind. He continued to explain black with black, white with with, Asian with Asian. That was one of those milestone memories you have during the course of your life that shape you. How do I feel about it now? I married a Filipino but never had my parents meet his parents so I was afraid of what my father felt.
I felt growing up to be pretty independent. Always doing my own thing, but somewhere in my life the fear I had of my father was enough to keep me in line. I'm sorry for that today, I wish he could have been more loving and able to discuss his feeling with me. I would have liked to have known more about my dad, what he had done, where he had been, what he did in the Navy. I must have been shut down early about asking questions cause even today I don't ask many questions. For one I don't want to appear stupid and two I'm afraid of being made fun of. Low self esteem from someone that wasn't afraid to step out and be the leader. Today, I'm just in the background and prefer to be that way. Til next time when we begin to look at sexual assult and how if effected me later in life.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Final Trip
This will be my last Bowl trip with the band. Physically it's just very hard on my body. My body is so stiff, my knees don't bend, my hands and fingers don't work as they once did. I'm afraid my feet will swell up and add to my walking problems. I'm nervous about this trip, but I have committed and I'm going.
Tim has a really busy schedule and I'm going to pick and choose the things I can do. The big day if Friday. We have rehearsal at 8am, then off the Bogus Basin for hours of snow till 3pm. Then upon return the pep band will play then the rest of the band is going to a hockey game to play the National Anthem and again during the break. They are walking to the Arena and this is a challenge. I think I will pass on the Hockey and go to the snow. I can always walk to the Lodge and just hang out there. Saturday is game day with early rehearsal, lunch at the bus, game then dinner at the bus again. I'm suppose to fly back with Jennifer, Tim wife on the charter. Tough to be in two places, feeding the band and finding my flight buddies. I'll just play it by ear.
I hope this trip goes well, I did go last year, but I had my own vehicle. This year I'm on the bus. It's all good, they will just have to be patient with me and I'll just have to push myself a little more than usual. Go Dogs!
The bus leave at 11pm tonight and will get into Boise on Thursday after a few stops for lunch and rehearsal should pull into the hotel around 5 pm. We return following the Northern Illinois game around 8pm Saturday. I hope it doesn't rain or snow, or it could be a cold trip. More on this trip when I return. Til then...
Tim has a really busy schedule and I'm going to pick and choose the things I can do. The big day if Friday. We have rehearsal at 8am, then off the Bogus Basin for hours of snow till 3pm. Then upon return the pep band will play then the rest of the band is going to a hockey game to play the National Anthem and again during the break. They are walking to the Arena and this is a challenge. I think I will pass on the Hockey and go to the snow. I can always walk to the Lodge and just hang out there. Saturday is game day with early rehearsal, lunch at the bus, game then dinner at the bus again. I'm suppose to fly back with Jennifer, Tim wife on the charter. Tough to be in two places, feeding the band and finding my flight buddies. I'll just play it by ear.
I hope this trip goes well, I did go last year, but I had my own vehicle. This year I'm on the bus. It's all good, they will just have to be patient with me and I'll just have to push myself a little more than usual. Go Dogs!
The bus leave at 11pm tonight and will get into Boise on Thursday after a few stops for lunch and rehearsal should pull into the hotel around 5 pm. We return following the Northern Illinois game around 8pm Saturday. I hope it doesn't rain or snow, or it could be a cold trip. More on this trip when I return. Til then...
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
It's Only Wednesday and I can't sleep
I'm up early again and can't go back to sleep. Thinking about the band, the bowl trip, the Bulldog Beat tour and what needs to get done. Let's start with the Bowl Game. Yea we are going to Boise ID for our 2010 Bowl game. We are taking 5 buses with 190 band students and another 15 cheer plus staff. Fun times except Tim has we flying in early and that just doesn't feel right to me. I don't want to leave early, I have work to do and what am I going to do in Boise that I can't do here. Just sit around the lobby with a bunch of people I don't know. Only the cheer and band are staying at our hotel. Yes I can get the keys ready, but I can arrange that by phone and it will be fine. I think I'll just have to tell Tim I can't leave early, need to prepare the per diems, last minute trip details etc.
Next we have the Beat tours in early January. I need to get my paperwork done now because the campus will be closed and people will be gone. I knew Brandon would hold me up with his late information. Now I have to make the time to get it done. Thankfully, Ryan did get his information to me and that tour is set.
So let's get through today. I'm going to go in late as today is going to be a late night for me and the band. We have rehearsal as usual, then at 4:30 we are doing a dedication of the Tree and Bench in remembrance of Nathan Ray. I don't think I can make this. I need to be at the building so we are ready to do bus sign ups and hotel sign ups. They are also turning in uniforms, completing the voting ballots and to top it off we have our Council Pot Luck following all the activity. I'm thinking I'll order some pasta & bread sticks from Pizza Hut so we have something warm delivered. I just don't know when the students will have time. Lots of pizza I'm sure. Got to get my gift wrapped also. Whew, lots to be done and he wants me to leave early for the bowl trip, I just don't think so.
That's it for now. I hopeful that all will go well, just need to make all the calls, print all the labels and be prepared. Till next time...
As it turned out the pot luck was great, we had plenty of food and a good time. The entire week was busy and with all the things going on, parties, banquet, bell ringing it was a great week.
Next we have the Beat tours in early January. I need to get my paperwork done now because the campus will be closed and people will be gone. I knew Brandon would hold me up with his late information. Now I have to make the time to get it done. Thankfully, Ryan did get his information to me and that tour is set.
So let's get through today. I'm going to go in late as today is going to be a late night for me and the band. We have rehearsal as usual, then at 4:30 we are doing a dedication of the Tree and Bench in remembrance of Nathan Ray. I don't think I can make this. I need to be at the building so we are ready to do bus sign ups and hotel sign ups. They are also turning in uniforms, completing the voting ballots and to top it off we have our Council Pot Luck following all the activity. I'm thinking I'll order some pasta & bread sticks from Pizza Hut so we have something warm delivered. I just don't know when the students will have time. Lots of pizza I'm sure. Got to get my gift wrapped also. Whew, lots to be done and he wants me to leave early for the bowl trip, I just don't think so.
That's it for now. I hopeful that all will go well, just need to make all the calls, print all the labels and be prepared. Till next time...
As it turned out the pot luck was great, we had plenty of food and a good time. The entire week was busy and with all the things going on, parties, banquet, bell ringing it was a great week.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Busy December Ahead
It's only the 5th and already we are wrapping up the year with our final football game of the season and plans to go to a bowl game. I've been staying busy with work and it's good for me. I'm undecided about putting up decorations. John doesn't seem to be in the spirit and now this first weekend is behind us so I don't know when we can get the lights up and the tree out. John has gone to drop off his Christmas present to Sean and his family. They will be gone over Christmas to Hawaii, so we may not see them. Bryan will be in Alabama and John's other two children live in New Mexico, so we won't see them either. I'm trying not to think about it and just keep work my focus.
I did get Bryan and Hannah's gifts off to them and John has all the cards for the other kids and grand kids. He's all about giving money, so not much planning there. So what is planned for this month. Monday evening we will go the President Welty's house for the band performance. Happens every year, but this year John has purchased a new Tux that he wants to wear. So I think I'll wear a dress so we look good. Wednesday is a huge day with band, bowl sign ups, recordings and the council potluck. Still not sure what I'm bringing, maybe just some chicken. I probably won't even get home till 9pm. Long day, but lots happening and that makes it fun. Friday is our Staff dinner. I'm planning on going this year. John is being initiated by KKY as an Honorary so he will miss the dinner. I'm very proud of him and he is planning to wear his Tux to this event as well. Looking good I'm sure. I'll have to have someone take picture. Then to wrap up the week we have Bell Ringing for the Salvation Army on Saturday morning and our motorcycle group Christmas Dinner in downtown Fresno. Full week, then the next week I'm off to a Bowl game, somewhere.
When Christmas does roll around maybe John and I will just go somewhere, spend the night in a hotel and just get out of town for a day or two. No plans yet for New Years. I would love to do something with someone. Even if it's a church service. I'm feeling closed in and withdrawing from my family. I have to make more of an effort I think. Well that's enough for now. Today I'm having an okay day, doing laundry and enjoying my time at home alone. Till next time. Chow
I did get Bryan and Hannah's gifts off to them and John has all the cards for the other kids and grand kids. He's all about giving money, so not much planning there. So what is planned for this month. Monday evening we will go the President Welty's house for the band performance. Happens every year, but this year John has purchased a new Tux that he wants to wear. So I think I'll wear a dress so we look good. Wednesday is a huge day with band, bowl sign ups, recordings and the council potluck. Still not sure what I'm bringing, maybe just some chicken. I probably won't even get home till 9pm. Long day, but lots happening and that makes it fun. Friday is our Staff dinner. I'm planning on going this year. John is being initiated by KKY as an Honorary so he will miss the dinner. I'm very proud of him and he is planning to wear his Tux to this event as well. Looking good I'm sure. I'll have to have someone take picture. Then to wrap up the week we have Bell Ringing for the Salvation Army on Saturday morning and our motorcycle group Christmas Dinner in downtown Fresno. Full week, then the next week I'm off to a Bowl game, somewhere.
When Christmas does roll around maybe John and I will just go somewhere, spend the night in a hotel and just get out of town for a day or two. No plans yet for New Years. I would love to do something with someone. Even if it's a church service. I'm feeling closed in and withdrawing from my family. I have to make more of an effort I think. Well that's enough for now. Today I'm having an okay day, doing laundry and enjoying my time at home alone. Till next time. Chow
Friday, November 26, 2010
Holiday Time
I have not given up on my new weight loss plan, just on hold. Since losing my 13 lbs, I have been holding steady and plan to get back on it soon. Right now it's Thanksgiving time and I'm just trying to get through the holidays. John and I had our Thanksgiving at home, just him and me. I came from a big family and I really miss all the people, the children, the family feel of the holidays.
I only have my one son and he is living in Alabama with his wife and my ex-husband. I am so jealous that I am not there with my only son. Oh well, he is happy and I try to be happy for him when we talk. I'll talk about his successes at another time. Right now the holidays are just hard for me and I don't think John has any idea. He comes from a small family so holidays are always small affairs. Me, there were always lots of family and few friends. Everyone helping in the kitchen and talking with my mom and sister- in-laws. These have great memories for me, and now it's just empty. I cook the full Thanksgiving meals by myself, clean it all up and John is such an only child that his mom did everything and he doesn't pitch in.
Anyway, how do I get through this time? Maybe I'll just go away for a few days by myself. Right now work will keep me busy till the Christmas break, then what. John and I home alone, by ourselves. Doesn't sound like much of a vacation. Just make the best of it. It could be worse, I could be alone. Till next time.
I only have my one son and he is living in Alabama with his wife and my ex-husband. I am so jealous that I am not there with my only son. Oh well, he is happy and I try to be happy for him when we talk. I'll talk about his successes at another time. Right now the holidays are just hard for me and I don't think John has any idea. He comes from a small family so holidays are always small affairs. Me, there were always lots of family and few friends. Everyone helping in the kitchen and talking with my mom and sister- in-laws. These have great memories for me, and now it's just empty. I cook the full Thanksgiving meals by myself, clean it all up and John is such an only child that his mom did everything and he doesn't pitch in.
Anyway, how do I get through this time? Maybe I'll just go away for a few days by myself. Right now work will keep me busy till the Christmas break, then what. John and I home alone, by ourselves. Doesn't sound like much of a vacation. Just make the best of it. It could be worse, I could be alone. Till next time.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
New Beginning
In September 2010 my husband and I went to Las Vegas for a short vacation. While John was out checking out the place I stayed in the hotel room and discovered a 6 Week Body Make Over. I was very interested in what they were saying. I've been trying to lose weight for the past several month and have lost 20 lbs in 4 months. My husband had lost 35 and does it with ease. Slow, but steady, but I've been getting discouraged. I reached a mark that I had hit before about 5 years ago, but never any lower. Anyway, this program just sounded like something that just might work for me. When I got back home I went on line and found the website. Great, I ordered and also ordered the other program to help me with the mental part of weight loss. This is my last shot. So the adventure began on Oct.3, 2010. Now 18 days into the program and I've lost 13 lbs. I'm thrilled and just starting to believe that this is it. Go Sassy, you can do it!
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